The Journey to Amazing Me

REALLY?!!!!! What the HECK!!! Why is this game of Life sooooo stinking hard!  I do the right thing, I help people when I can, I’m a good person, I read all the self-help books, say affirmations,  I write in my Gratitude Journal most days, "plead/pray" to God, I TRY to meditate - yeah right – hello brain...can you zip it for just 1 nanosecond!  

WHAT AM I DOING WRONG????? 

Why do others get it right, but I keep ending back up at same old me?

At the time of this writing, I am a few months shy of 57 years young and up until about a year ago had been down this road of gain a little self confidence then fall back 12 steps to “fearful”, “stupid”, “can’t-do-anything-right” me over and over and over and, yep, STILL, OVER AGAIN until I finally had enough and REALLY started screaming out to  

the Universe/God/Spirit/Santa Claus - anyone who would listen (is there really anyone listening by the way!!!) demanding to know WHY DID WE MAKE THIS SO HARD and WHAT THE HECK CAN I DO TO GET OFF THIS ROLLERCOASTER?

Well…..that’s all it took! WHAT? No way you say…..I’m always asking What the Heck and my life is still the same thing, new day over and over again!

As I look back over the last 10 years of My Spiritual Journey, what I see is a seemingly random piece of information here and another random idea there, a concept that seems to be a part of something here and another over there; and as I continued on my path of seeking, asking WHY, getting frustrated, having had enough……SCREAMING at The Universe, I began to get clarity and get the sense of this all being like a wagon wheel – all these disconnected concepts and that I am the hub of the wheel that is meant to join them all together!

Out of all of this, I have come to be aware of My Purpose in Life and that is to Spark Awareness in Others of Who They Truly Are, even as I am STILL working on my own awareness and striving to live each moment from My Higher Self and stay in the Generous Present Moment - so what better way to master something than to present it to others, right?

There is a reason me “doing the right things” – webinars, retreats, reading book after book after book, thinking positive – seemingly did “not work"...and as I unfold and expand into a greater awareness, I endeavor to share my story and inspirations with any who are drawn here so that I may fulfill my passion and purpose to Spark Awareness